here in this town they have all got the blues

So, that was a real shock today, when I'm half-listening to the news at dinner and I hear Heath Ledger is found dead in his NY apartment.
I liked Heath Ledger! He was an amazing actor...so versatile...and basically just coming into his prime. He had so much to offer the acting world, and he's gone. Basia and I were saying, we wanted to grow old watching his movies. He really was just that kind of person, you know?

The first movie I saw with Heath Ledger was "A Knight's Tale" and I always think of my sister when I think of that movie, because we used to watch it on HBO whenever it was on. Even if we caught it in the middle, we'd watch the movie, because it was awesome, and we loved the fact that it was set in older times, but with modern music. It's just one of those things I'll always connect with my sister, and now that link is dead.

Rest In Peace, Heath Ledger. You were simply amazing.

we are the future

listen to the sound of my voice
can you feel the beat of my heart?
listen to the questions I have
listen to me
it's all very simple
to see what we need

give us hope
my voice is calling
can you see?
look in my eyes
can you feel?
my hand is reaching
give us hope
and we'll show you the way...

listen to the sound of my voice
can you feel the beat of my heart?
listen to the questions I have
listen to me
we are the future
help us believe

give us hope
my voice is calling
can you see?
look in my eyes
can you feel?
my hand is reaching
give us hope
and we'll show you the way

take my hand
now look in my eyes
tell me what you see...

give us hope
my voice is calling
can you see?
look in my eyes
can you feel?
my hand is reaching
give us hope
and we'll show you the way

give us hope
my voice is calling
can you see?
look in my eyes
can you feel?
my hand is reaching
give us hope
and we'll show you the way

come on, vogue, let your body move to the music

I love project runway. And you know what I enjoy most about project runway? Not the show itself, but the fact that I watch it so much now that my PARENTS are watching it. My mom and I will have it on in two different rooms, and we're screaming back and forth to each other which outfits look awesome or ugly, or who's going to be in and out that week. My dad told me he doesn't really care for the show, but yet, he watches it with us when we have it on. Project runway...bringing families together everywhere.

Oh, and I love Christian Siriano. Enough said. <3

I'd become a gay man for him.

And I'd go lesbian for Heidi Klum, if she was into that kinda thing. But it's okay that she's heterosexual and married to Seal, because have you SEEN her children? They're adorable. I want to be their babysitter.

keep holding on 'cause you know we'll make it through

So, here's the deal. In exactly 4 months and 2 days, I'll be graduating from college. And even though I'm really ecstatic and excited about it, I have to be honest, I'm kinda freaking out about it, too. I was just watching the finale of Gilmore Girls Season 7 (because I missed it when it was aired on tv...I missed a lot of season 7) and Rory graduated and she got a pretty awesome job, and I was like, "wow. Rory seems all grown up and ready to go" and then I thought "I'm basically the same age as Rory. Gosh, I'm not old enough to graduate!"

Then my best friend assured me I was old enough to graduate...but what I mean is...mentally. Physically I'm old enough to graduate - physically, I'm old enough to do a lot of things - but I feel like maybe I'm not ready to graduate just yet. I thought I was, but the thought of it scares me a little bit. I have nothing to look forward to after that (except a really busy summer full of drum corps (and working when I have the time). I won't even have time to take a vacation. I kind of thought after I graduate college, I would go on vacation somewhere...Disney World, Europe, someplace crazy and fun where I can both relax and explore and have a great time doing it. This summer I'm going to be stuck in the states, and then after that? Where do I go from there?

I guess I'll keep working at the theatre until I find another job, but I don't know what I want to do with my life. I majored in music and psychology - barely - it's more an interdisciplinary studies diploma than anything. I'm scared of the future. I haven't even thought about graduate school yet, or if I even want to go to graduate school. I'm not sure, I'm never sure. About anything. I wish I was one of those people who was set on doing something since they were 5. That would make my life so much easier, right?

I need to go do laundry, because I have absolutely nothing to wear on the first day of my last semester of college. Yay me....my life is an organized mess.

'cause we are living in a material world

I really want this.

I need to hit up a Best Buy pronto and fulfill my stereo dreams.

I was shopping on http://www.onegoodbumblebee.com and I really want this:

and this:


I also need to hit up B&H one of these days to get memory cards for my camera.
Memory cards = lots of pictures in London in March!

I'm so excited to be going to London. I've always wanted to go, and after a couple of friends have gone and I've heard about their experiences, I wanted to go even more. And then I heard about a global learning trip with my school, so I jumped at the opportunity. I went on a global learning trip with school the summer after my freshman year and I had an amazing experience. The next summer, I went to Europe to visit family on my own terms. I promised myself to do another global learning trip before I graduate, and ever since I changed my major, I've had more time to do something like travel during spring break.
I want to see sights like this:






Oh yeah. London is going to be a blast! Kim, Amanda, and I have nicknamed it Drunkfest '08, but I do also want to see the sights. I'm really super-excited, if you can't tell. ;)

this could be the start of something new

I feel like after my photo blog is complete, I should leave it alone. I should leave it all there (and not go on a rampage and delete it like I have with other things). This would simply be the continuation of whatever I have to offer...my other blog is just a photo project. I'm at day 51 today - more than halfway finished. I can't believe I started it 51 days ago...it feels like just yesterday I was making the little slips of paper to pick each day. It's definitely been a fun experience capturing ideas in a picture.

My vacation from school is winding down. I have about 3 more days until I go back and start my last semester of college. It's kind of crazy when I think about it. I started college 4 years ago, and now I'm 4 months away from graduating. The time has gone by so slowly and so quickly at the same time. I hope I accomplished a lot during my 4 years there.

Since I have some time off, I've been being a bum, working, going to drum corps rehearsal, knitting, and reading. I finished "An Abundance of Katherines" by John Green and it was pretty awesome. I'm about 100 pages into "Dear John" by Nicholas Sparks and so far I think this is my favorite book yet by this author, and nothing really juicy has even happened yet. I've been using an old metrocard as a bookmark, when I have about a thousand bookmarks all around my room. Speaking of my room, I really need to clean it. I'm in the process of organizing things around my room, but I keep taking breaks and listening to music.

My dad found these two old tapes that I used to listen to during my childhood years - "Favorite Songs From Jim Henson's Muppets" Volumes 1 and 2. I'm listening to them right now and they bring back some awesome memories, with great songs like "Happiness Hotel," "Good Things Happen In the Dark" (okay, I just thought about it now, and that could sound REALLY dirty), "Grandma's Feather Bed," "Hey Mr. Bassman," "and "Movin' Right Along."

I got a bunch of gift cards for Christmas, so I've been gradually using them up. I'm shopping online a lot - I already made an order on Barnes & Noble and bought a CD, two books, and a 2008 wall calendar. I just went shopping on OldNavy.com and bought the most adorable shoes:

I also put in another order to B&N and ordered The Guardian on dvd, as well as the book "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert. I'm looking forward to reading it, and The Guardian is such an excellent movie. I cry every time....it's definitely an essential in anyone's dvd collection.

Well...that's all I've got for now. I need to do some serious damage control in the room. ;)

p.s. I have to add that last week, I went to the city and bought this book at the Union Square Barnes and Noble. I really love B&N and I got 4 gift cards for Christmas this year! But anyways, you should check it out. It's a very interesting read and a very clever book - and handy, too!